Day 8 - Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Nor did I write yesterday...but nothing really happened yesterday at all - so whatever...
except for the fact that pretty much ALL the girls in the department are convinced that Sean is in love with me and people keep coming up to me and saying why the hell don't you have five boyfriends..cause i'm not that attractive people...get over it (this is completley different obviously from my last entry...)

Anyway...here i am today on my day off at 9:46pm sitting in front of my comptuer and working on Macy's Shop for A Cause stuff while also shamlessly and selflessly looking for ways to get a job at MAC, to help educate women in beauty because i really really want to give back (for some reason the quote "to those whom much is given, much is expected" is seriously is just the way that i want to live my life)...and just in general i want to do something tha tmatters in the world because i think that's really what i'm here for...

Also yesterday the girls said i should be a bridal model which i would love to but i just don't know how to start unfortunatley - if it's supposed to be that i'm a model then i believe that god will make me a model, but if not, i know what i'm supposed to do is give back - and that's what my goal is right now...

anyway today i went out to lunch with ruth anne and it's always just lovely when i see her - it's funny because we always talk about the same stupid stuff when we get together but somehow i sort of like it and other times i get sort of tired when we always hang out but what can you do i suppose right?
Regardless we went to vinny T's and i ate way more carbs then I should (But hopefully tomorrow will be my first day back at the gym so i am SUPER pumped for that!!!), but then we went to get ice cream, we walked down newbury street, went to DSW where i went in looking for flats and came out with heels and i met this awesome girl who wants me to do her makeup for her which is awesome...so she said she's gonna call me and make an appointment!! SICK

anyway so yeah - we did all that and then i told her i to get ready for work which i really had to do because i was also supposed to do this girls makeup tonight for her model shots but she never ended up coming in...anyway i wore a white shirt, with my citizens and black shoes and i looked pretty much killer with my makeup and i stroll into macy's and guess who is there...PHIL...oh my gosh i could have died (i sound like a six year old girl right now -i'm aware)
anyway - so yeah i start talking to abby and then he comes over and i give him a high five and abby is going on about mike and how he's being an asshole which i did listen, and then gave my best advice in front of phil and he kept putting his hand like touching my shoulder almost which was really nice...oh my gosh he's so cute but i have to stop having these work crushes i swear...ok - so anyway he was like "she sounds like she knows what she's talking about" - i think he might think i'm cute but i don't know...anyway - maybe this whole move thing was meant to be and maybe it wasn't...who knows - the point is that i'm really happy but my business is doing so horribly right now - it's about to dip down into the negative i know it but i'm trying to keep my spirit up...

i'm not quite sure what i'm doing right now and i'm so into checking my astrology because i so have acrush on phil and i don't know whether i should act on it or not...the other girls were fine with me dating someone in security but dating someone on the selling floor that is selling right across from me - like i said before - what if we break up or something really bad happens - that would not bode well for the two of us - however what if he's the one...oh gosh this is so bad

then i texted mark tonight and he went on and on about this girl that he really liked and wanted to talk to and take out to dinner and get with and i still can't get him off my mind - well that's not true - i can and i can't...i don't know where i stand with him - i keep putting up ridiculously hot pictures on facebook so that maybe he'll want to get back with me and realize what he had but i guess he doesn't want that - either way he's making a big mistake...i was perfect for him and he gave it up - or i gave it up - i still haven't decided which way i want my story to end...

all in all today was a good day - i got ready on the offchance that i would get to see phil and guess what - i got to see phil - so that was excellent and i was really happy and he came over to visit me which was really awesome - no one knows about my crush on him except i'm thinking of telling abby...i don't know...i guess we'll see

either way in a few minutes i'm going to brush my teeth and go to bed and then hpefully finish this shop for a cause thing...i can't wait to go to the gym tomorrow!
YIPPEEEE!